LET THE ANGST BEGIN.

I don't actually know how much more of this section I'll upload...some of it is...rough...but this is the beginning of my super-angsty times...



TEXT: You toyed with my emotions like some dummy dolled messed me up in mind you will never know how now confess your mean teases and

THE RED PERIOD.

Here we have four pages of strange drawings...more drawings to come.







Here we have some of the earliest samples of "Seandish" a scrambled language in which I spoke and wrote fluently in middle school. There were as many as five Seandish speakers at its peak.

TRANSLATION: Help me I am seeing things my mind does accelerate my sight but I have never seen something that wasnt there I wrote a poem and put it into a balloon as a gift for Katie I do fear a tiny bit that it wont be thought of as a friendly act but as some sort of "romantic" thing. But it is really just a friend gift

(I have no idea what I'm talking about...)

A year later....PLUS, I LIKED A GIRL.

"I'm back, I haven't written for a while its 06-02-04 so the year has passed. I developed an interest in drawing, I was elected a representative to my 6th grade and then VP of 04-05."

THIS IS WHERE IT GETS AWESOME. Now, this section was blacked out at some point, just like the CIA, nbd, BUT THANKS TO MODERN TECHNOLOGY, we have been able to read past the cover-up.

"But most importantly I fell in love, her name is #$%(@@@#&%)@*#%) I want to marry her. Some people fall in love and out in a day but have battling this for an entire six months but I can't. I haven't told her."

Who knew?

Middle School.

"It is now middle school and here is my schedule (1) Band (every nine weeks first is geography) (2) math (3) Gif res/gym (4) English (5) Science (6) Geo (or band)

For ****** I have (Teacher A), the mean idiot of the century. He is a loser because that is the only thing he can do. (Teacher B) is nice but I hate **** so it is an even equation. (Teacher C) is a wretched inconsiderate selfish F****ing B****, truly she might be a F***ing Bas**** for those idiots that means that she is a transvestite."

For the record, I ended up liking Teachers A and C.

Also, here is early evidence that I am ALL up in queer theory from the beginning.

NO AUTOGRAPHS, PLEASE.

There are some subtle gems in these pages, including the pros and cons list next to each variant of my potential signature, none of which look anything like my real signature.

"On the following pages, I will perfect my signature."

Palace

This is shameful....

"Palace is a chat zone/socializing area. Many a times you will find me there I will trade my registration code to become a partial God, a partner in a palace. I need his expertise, and computer yet I have my registration code. I have this code tucked in my folders of my computer where he will never obtain it. My powers on him are weak if I can make it so he needs me then I can bargain to the point where I have the upper hand this might be it. Yet I don't wish to get my hopes up. But I decided when I can be alone I will prove that I am great first to myself."

...smh.

VACATION RHOSE ISLAND

I can only describe this entry.

Basically, I listed all the members of my family (I had just gone to a wedding) and ranked them based on "how much I care about that person," though, later, I say that it was "how nice they were to me."

One of my cousins got two stars.